The End from the Beginning

We like to write our own stories. We dream about the future and plan what it will look like. Many of our stories appear similar. They begin with elementary school, continue to middle and high school, and then begin to change. College follows for most, but not all. And after that, it's either marraige or a career or both. The americam dream, right?
Reality doesn't always turn out the way we dream though. Often things happen in the details of our lives that don't fit into our plans and we become depressed or determined to make our lives fit into our plan. But the life of a believer is not his or her own, it's God's. Salvation is an act of turning ones life over to God to do what He wants. It means our plans can and most likely will be crushed, until our only desire is to do whatever God wants to do in us and through us. The act of surrendering all to the One who deserves all. I like the way Warren Barfield puts it, "He will ask nothing from us, but demand we give our all".
In the last year God has messed up my plans. Taking people out of my life and leaving me wondering whether I like this plan. There were several times where I just sat wondering if it was time to just say "Adios", whether that meant to TMC or to life completely. But by the grace of God I am still here today. I don't know God's plans. Maybe I won't return to TMC in the fall, I don't know. But I know that God has proved Himself trustworthy and faithful. The journey of faith is more valuable than we realize and I won't trade it for all the gold in the world.
It's not ours to see the end from the beginning, God alone can handle that. If I could have seen a year ago what this year would be like, chances are, I would not have been able to handle it. But looking back on what God has done in my life this past year, I know that it has been an awesome journey and I see how incredible God's faithfulness and plans are for me. And sometimes He takes time in revealing His plans and when we try to rush Him, it will only interfere with His plans. Later we will realize that God used our plans to take us to where He wants us to be, where we can realize how awesome He is and His plans for our lives are.
Our lives are merely vapors, so why do we worry so much about our silly plans? Lately I've been listening to Adie Camps music and find it really encouraging and challenging. It reminds me that I don't matter, only Christ and serving Him should be my only desire. One day we all have to face eternity. Will that day be spent celebrating that we served God on earth and now get to enjoy heaven? Or will that day be spent in sorrow, realizing that our lives were too focused on earth and we forgot about the eternal hope of heaven?