Stretching Experience

This semester has been so busy, which is why I haven't really done much blogging in the last month. But on top of being incredibly busy, it's been a semester full of stretching my faith. One class I'm taking is an introduction to biblical counseling. When I started the class I had no idea it would be so difficult on the personal level, even more than academic. We have a personal improvement project and it helped me see how much I have to change.
In the last month I have realized that I have a major control issue and it shows that I dont trust God. It's become more obvious through the anxiety I have experienced. And I believe that the reason I struggle with this is because I feel less in control of other things that once seemed in my control. So, all that to say, I am learning to trust God, but it is a long hard process.
Something else I've been going through since returning is losing grandparents. The same day I got back, my Grandma died. Thankfully I expected it and was able to tell her good-bye. But something unexpected happened tonight. In the middle of the most normal conversation with my mom this evening, my mom gave me shocking news. She said that my Grandpa died. Talk about being in shock. But with the shock came disappointment and this time I didnt expect it. I never told him good-bye, that hurts. God is faithful though and He will help me with both things I am struggling with.