The Future of Faith

When we imagine our lives, we rarely imagine the trials we face nor would we want to. We fill our imaginations with the hopes we have for the future. But it's no secret that trials are a part of life. Every person faces their own trials on any given day, some are little some are life changing.

When I imagined what my life would be like at this point, it involved graduating from college and marrying the man of my dreams. But as I look at my life now, I wonder whether either of those will ever happen. Trials have come to change my life. Not only am I still single (with no prospects), but because of finances, the two semesters of college that I have remaining, are being postponed indefinitely. This leaves me asking why? And what am I supposed to do now?

Disappointment leaves me wanting to sulk and not do anything, but life pushes me forward. The only way I can handle this is on a moment by moment basis. Rather than freaking out about how this will affect the rest of my life, I have to turn it over to God again and again and live in the moment. The way we look at situations is a choice, it can be the worst news in the world, but we can choose to have hope or choose to be hopeless.

I wish I knew what the next couple years would look like and I wish I knew that they would be the most incredible years of my life. But God has not yet showed me what’s ahead. So here I sit, waiting to see what He’s got next, thinking of how I need to pack up my life. Wondering what the road ahead looks like.