Do You Love Enough to Share?

In my twenty-one years of life, one thing I've learned is how hard goodbyes are. I can't remember ever being happy about having to tell someone goodbye. But this summer I had to say probably one of the toughest goodbyes of my life, though I am sure there will be more to come. And I had to learn to trust God in a whole new way...

It's hard to believe that it was a month and a half ago, when we got the call that my Grandma had passed away. A week before I'd seen her for the last time and I think she knew it was our last goodbye. But it's hard to tell someone you love so much, goodbye.

The hardest part of all was that I had talked to her about salvation, but she seemed to think she was saved. So when she died, I was left wondering if I would ever see her again... And I struggled with that, a lot. I wanted to see her in heaven and I had tried to make sure she was saved, but it was never a open subject.

At some point, God showed me that I had done what I could and the outcome was up to Him. It broke my heart to think I might not see her in heaven and to let go, realizing that I had no power to change what happened to her. But by God's grace, I am learning that all I can do is love people enough to share the gospel with them. What they do with what I say, is between them and God.

Recently God has been helping me to see that if I really love someone, I will want to know God and know His love and grace. If we love them, we will be willing to take a little risk so they can have a chance to love God. This should be a challenge to us (me as much as anyone).