Suffering? Glory!

Wow! God is SO good. Just in case you forgot....I know I do. Leaving for school has never been as hard as it was this time. Not because I don't like it. But I felt like I was leaving a part of my heart there and that hurt. Your probably thinking "boyfriend?" Haha. No, family. Over this past break I realized how much I love my family. And I'm really thankful for them and how God is using them!
God blessed me by letting me spend quite a bit of time with my Gramma. When I left she was in the hospital and had been since New Years. I must admit that I'm not ready to let her go, but it seems like she is ready to "meet her Maker". The hardest part is that I don't know whether she's a true believer or not. I keep praying that God will not let her die until she has believed in Him. And I selfishly want to know that she is. She's 96...Only He knows.
It is because of how much I love her that I have a deep desire for her to be saved. Not only that she would be saved, but that others would too. As I was thinking today, I realized that though she's 96, its not long enough. Suddenly life seems short. And I've begun to realize that the world needs to know, the world (each one) needs to know Jesus. I guess you could say, He is returning the passion to me, that had faded.
God's timing is always good and perfect. And TLC is exactly what He perscribed. The topic is Suffering in the Life of a Believer. The big issue of my life seems to be along that same track, so it was a topic I'm quite familiar with. But it has been so encouraging and eye-opening. Just today He proved that Suffering brings glory to Himself, as the speakers have been saying.
My dad called and told me that my Gramma is probably going to go soon. This caused me to have a major breakdown. But I realized tonight that as much as I want to mourn, God uses this suffering for His glory. Through mentioning my present suffering to a friend it opened the door for her to share some of hers. And God continues to teach me... I just wish I could share all that I've been learning from TLC.