Gloria In Excelsis Deo!

My prayer before church this morning was that the message would be what I needed to hear. It seems that God wanted to remind me of Grace. In Crossroads, I knew it had to be God was in control of what Rick Holland talked about, because he wasn't in Proverbs. Of all books to be in, he was preaching out of Ephesians. It seems God wants to teach me a little from that book, because He keeps taking me back to it.
A week or two ago I read a book that talked about Ephesians and I decided to start reading it. To show how unfocused I've been in my quiet time, I wasn't really getting anything out of it. But everytime someone is preaching out of it, I am able to understand. Like I said, Rick based the message out of Ephesians 2:1-10. The topic was Grace. It so simple, yet SO difficult. As he said, we struggle with grace a lot, but it is crucial to the Christian.
It all comes down to Grace. And I really believe that is a large part of my recent struggle. I challenge you to look up the word grace. It seems like a wonderful word, but the weight of it is unbelieveable. How can it be mine? Why is it so hard to accept? I have a feeling I am only beginning to understand it. And here I thought I understood it. Guess that's how God works, He challenges us on deeper levels, in His good timing. He doesn't throw us a list five miles long when we pray to receive Him, because He knows we would not be able to handle it. Yet another example of His Grace. How awesome is He! How undeserving am I.