Patience in Silence

"Oh, it’s okayIf You answer me with silenceAnd it’s okay if You don’t say a wordYou’re testing me to trust You’ll be faithful in this quietSo okayAnswer meWith silence"-Joy Williams


This past weekend I really struggled with being frustrated with God. He seemed to not be listening or answering me and neither was most everyone else. How could He seem to be leading me in a direction, but not providing for me to get there, which I found very hard to understand. But today the weather was amazing and I saw the perfect opportunity to spend a little time with my Father. It wasn't a long time, but it was a good time to refocus, a little. He reminded me that He is faithful, with me, and will answer in His perfect timing. The best thing He reminded me of was that no matter what, it will be good. If He allows me to return, or not return, or even die, it will be good, actually it will be best. He works all things out for good and desires to be glorified. How can He be glorified when things are bad? I can rest in His will because it is and will be best. Sadly, I forget and lose focus on Him. I'm so glad He's faithful and He does bless me in so many ways. What right do I have to complain when I deserve nothing. I've been saved and have a home in heaven, that should be more than enough.
It's thanksgiving! There's so much to be thankful for: family that loves me, a God who has saved me, wonderful friends, life, grace, love, peace, hope, the unknown, answered prayer, many things I can't even think of and He is enough. A quote I've grown to love is "I don't know what the future holds, but I know who holds the future". I've just realized that I wont be home for thanksgiving and it's sad. But hopefully God will somehow make everything better than it would be if I was even home. I can't wait to see what He will do next! And I will try to wait patiently until this storm passes and the silence ends. He is faithful.